AN
ODE TO MY OLD LIFE written
by Tracey Coluzzi, 6.6.2013. Spirits
Dreaming “Awaken Your Spirit Within” My name is Tracey and I
am an alcoholic! My name is Tracey and I
am a drug addict! Well so they say.....I
haven't had a drink in so many years I no longer care to
remember...Though on occasion I will have the odd bourbon, but only
one. I do have a mate in
spirit who comes in to visit, and whenever Donny Bell is around I
crave bourbon big time. So I might have one for him to enjoy through
me. I never liked the way alcohol made me feel. I haven't touched speed
since I was in my 30's, but I could have been the biggest junkie
fucked up drug addict....I made a conscious choice to live and not be
dependant on being numb. Besides that, I had a death wish...I didn't
care if I lived or died. The amount of car wrecks and motor bike
accidents I was involved in, someone was truly looking out for me. THANK GOD I no longer
think like that, and feel that way about myself. Life is about free will
and making a conscious choice to do something good or bad. Along my
death wish journey I never harmed anyone except myself, and I only
ever endangered myself. I still smoke pot on
occasion, but I wouldn't call myself an addict or dependant on
anything except air, water & food & LOVE. I really enjoy the
mind expansion and calmness that comes from being stoned on good home
grown in the ground, Marijuana. People have demonized &
condemned a plant that could save the entire planet, it is a super
food, it can be used for rope & clothing, and even sails for
yachts. The oil can be used for medicinal purposes, the seeds can be
consumed. You can make paper out of it. It is also a cure for
cancer....... So WHY has it been
labelled it this way? The Government make much
more money out of Alcohol. If they tried to control the growing of
marijuana it would not be possible. So they made it illegal and
labelled it as bad, bad, bad! And called people who use it drug
addicts and junkies, and that it leads to other drug taking.... WHAT A LOAD OF UTTER
BULLSHIT! I bet those people have
NEVER been stoned! HAHAHAHA. They do not have a fucking clue! They
say it is the gateway drug! Gateway to fucking
WHAT!!! ??? Do you know what the
gateway drug is....ALCOHOL...... It is readily available,
it is sold in large quantities and low cost. And alcohol kills, or is
the cause of more death's in people than Marijuana EVER has! Alcohol continues to be
the bane of our society in Australia, with binge drinking and
violence out of control, it is no longer safe to go out at night to
enjoy yourself, you are forever on guard. Since the Government and
all the fucking do-gooders, in their infinite wisdom has taken
marijuana off the streets and underground, other drugs have taken
it's place. These drugs are far more insidious, far more damaging &
dangerous to lives young & old. Speed is no longer clean and safe
to use. LSD is readily available but is probably entirely synthetic.
Cocaine and Heroin are SO readily available. I see drug deals &
people shooting up in their car, on the streets in MY home
town....W.T.F! Amphetamines,
Methamphetamine, Ecstasy (MDMA), MDA & ICE....the fucking list
goes on. Drug labs pop up like mushrooms, until they explode and kill
people no-one does anything about it. It
is much safer growing your own dope and have a smoke every now and
again. Very nice made into cookies and mull cake too :) So
THANK YOU to our Government for being so narrow minded and thinking
out of your asses. Glad you think your bullshitting works.....NOT!
If you can't see what is happening in Australia with the drug
problems NOW....we are in for a very bumpy ride in the future.
Fucking blind Freddie could see we have a very serious on going drug
problem, and nothing seems to be done about it. OH! but they have
brought in stronger laws to further demonize a harmless NATURAL plant
- MARIJUANA- that happens to have happy drug properties, and is NOT
addictive, as well as be a super food & cancer cure. Show me a
creative, thought provoking artist, musician, actor, singer, painter,
or a normal everyday person and I will show up a pot smoker! Well
that was my rant on drugs and marijuana. :) Back
to me....HAHAHAHA..... So I refuse to ride the guilt trip around my
past. Love
me and except me for all my foibles, no one is perfect and if you
are...snap out of it. I am more than willing too, and happily tell
people about my drug and alcohol issues. I have nothing to hide and I
hope others may gain strength, and knowledge by reading this &
learning from their own experiences. Everything we go through in this
lifetime is to teach us something, so embrace it fully, live it
completely and heal it entirely. The
more work I do on myself, the more I am able to understand people and
the human psyche. I say to you, embrace all the good and all the not
so good about yourself and LOVE yourself just the same. I’m not
really sure what my family think about me, or my past. What they
think is none of my business actually, so I do not put much thought
into that. I know that I have worked through, and I am still working
through my life's lessons and living my full journey. The good and
not so good always go hand in hand. 07.06.2013 CASE IN
POINT:- RIP & Sincerest
Condolences to the Kwan family. The Kwan family of NSW,
who's son jumped to his death, saying he could fly....HE was sold
synthetic LSD for TWO DOLLARS!!!!! Fucking TWO DOLLARS, and
this gorgeous bright young man lost his life in front of his family
who tried in vane to save him. And they 17yr old boy
who sold him the drugs is to face court. TWO INNOCENT LIVES
RUINED TWO FAMILIES DESTROYED IN A MOMENT May the Angels surround them and heal them
Sorry...but this would
not have happened if Marijuana was legalized! Growing
Marijuana for personal use ONLY, was legalized. Marijuana for
medical purposes was legalized and ABUNDANT. Synthetic drugs
were closer scrutinized by the power's that be. With MUCH tougher kick ass penalties applied to manufacturing,
distribution & sale of this shit! I have never felt the
need to delve into stronger drugs than Marijuana, until I was lured
into taking speed. I knew who and where I was getting it from, I knew
it was not cut with anything else. I never injected it, I used to
swallow it. And the instant all that changed I stopped. Well that and
the fact I met the man I wanted to marry, and life meant a shit load
more to me now, that was incentive enough to change my life. In
hindsight, I am truly lucky and infinitely blessed to be alive. When
I tried so hard to make myself dead! I know longer feel like
that...... that death wish. But I see it a lot in other people. I
will do anything to assist those in need, to get the help they so
desperately require and often cannot ask for. I do know from first
hand experience what you are going through. So much shame is placed
on people with drug & alcohol issues, & mental health
issues. It should not be like this, but that is a whole new blog
topic. There should be help
readily available. It is a very sad state
of affairs when the Government (Barnett) state debt has blown out to
over $20 million and counting! STOP fucking spending money on shit
we do NOT need F.F.S! I love you & care
about your welfare. Tracey Coluzzi... Spirits Dreaming
“Awaken Your Spirit
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